Ellie In my opinion No you do not sound crazy for thinking that . Matter of fact that was on my mind to . What fun will I have ?
I had to turn that around &* truly *ask myself Was I really having fun ? If ruining my closeness with my family & making my health bad or braking every moral I had before I started drinking only to be ashamed of myself - No that was No fun
Dig deep in yourself you'll find the right answer . Alcohol takes everything away from you - it's pure Hell !!