Wish I had what it takes to change the locks and see the light of day. I have been here before. The excuses of why I need HIM. Financial, eight years of stuff to go through, he's still in the early recovery stages, I know that I can make a list of reasons to keep trying.
What I do know this time around is that I need to work on me and my falling back into co-dependency again. And maybe between his work on himself and me on myself, we can salvage the past 8 years? (See, another excuse to keep trying - the four letter word - HOPE)