Dandylion laughed reading parts of your message and wanted to cry reading the other parts. Am a Med Surg RN an I deal with mostly liver/aka drunks. Coming in being completely passed out to withdrawing with horrible DTs. This is horible time for me no kids home as my oldest is out the house and my youngest is with my ex husband. Am alone fighting my urges to not call him or reach out. I was weak and did it b4 wrk and he didn't pick up which is a good thing honestly. I have to be realistic this is not a good healthy relationship for me anymore. Your right though it hurts like hell feels like my chest is caving in. One of my goals for myself is to go to a ACOA meeting this evening