I definitely am. I also came from an extremely dysfunctional family and although I tried to not let it spread to my kids, it did. I suppose I have guilt over that.
I have had lifelong issues with depression. I was last in therapy 20 years ago and on meds on and off since. I've hit rock bottom several times, sometimes with the help of alcohol, sometimes not. Had a pretty good past year except for a few down times.
Curiously, I feel most like drinking when I am feeling pretty good about myself! Figure that one out. lol
I do not crave drinking when I am down.
I have no other destructive habits other than smoking cigs. I have lost weight and taking better care of my health. So why do I want to make myself feel like shinola?