I was a bit proud of myself tonight though.
One of my staff is also an old friend- she has a cocaine and alcohol problem.
I dropped off a guitar I had tonight for her gig.
There were a few people there and they invited me to sit and play/ sing for a bit with them, I really wanted to because I've always had a safe and fun time with that crowd ( folk/ blues musicians) but I knew I'd just end up drinking 3 bottles of wine and banging a bunch of stuff up my nose so I left.
I haven't hung around that group in a long time and I don't have a drug problem (never have) but I don't want to acquire one, its only a matter of time.
Anyway, small victory