Try to just focus on avoiding triggers if anniversaries are tough on you - I'm concerned by the use of quotation marks in your earlier post; it reads like you're getting upset by what others may think or what's been said in the past. If you look at your posts, there's a cycle of soliciting opinion on how other people/events affect your sobriety, defensiveness and anger at some of the comments, and then apologizing for lashing out. I'm not saying this to "pile on" but rather perhaps recognizing if you're getting worked up could nip this in the bud? I know it helps me. Congratulations on the appointments!