Trying again too
So I would like to join your class also. I quit again 5 days ago.
I went out with my boss after work ad had only two drinks in three hours. Success! Moderation!
No.
After I left him at the bus, I snuck to the bar I went to all the time.
Just two glasses of wine. Really. It's no biggie.
Woke up the monster.
Went to anothe bar. 3 vodka sodas.
Ate pizza.
Went home. Sucked down another two vodkas straight up.
Woke up with the shakes, shame, disappointment.
My husband quit 146days ago. I made it 47 days with him and said, I'm a better drunk than him, I can control it.
No.
I can't.
So it began, sneaking alcohol so no one would know my secret. Sounds awfully like my binge eating and vomiting days.
I would sneak to the bar and say I was at the gym.
I used to blame my drinking on his bad influence. And granted, when I was with him I would drink even more. But I have some serious issues.
I need help and I know it now.
Day 5 today and it's the worst struggle yet.
Funny how we count alcohol in days. I guess it's a problem when you have to tick off the days. I mean, I can't tell you the last time I ate McDonald's or a donut.
Sorry to be rambling so long. I want to say I look forward to become sober with all of you, But, after three massive failures, I don't have much faith in my willpower. But I always try.