Originally Posted by julesonya

Hello-I'd like to join sept sober. I've been on here before, drifted and have been killing myself daily. I need this to stop. I'm going to lose my son, my family, my boyfriend if I don't.
I make it to day 3 and then my av says "you feel fine! You can get a drink. You don't have a problem" and then it's a bottle of vodka every day. My last drink was at noon but I was pretty well drunk until 3 or 4pm. It's the first night in weeks I haven't been drunk. And of course I can't sleep. I have ambien but am afraid to take some since I was drinking earlier today. This is so hard.