The good news is I have time to figure out a whole bunch of stuff, if I stay sober today.
I simply needed the willingness to be willing at first - that was huge for me. Slowly, while I admitted - it took me several months to really accept I was an alcoholic.
The tricky part is admitting to our inner most self..........
It helped me to read and re read the Dr's. Opinion - specifically the types of alcoholics. He reviews 5 different ones, but then goes on to state their are many more types!
This opened the door to me for acceptance. I did not have to fit anyone else's definition or type. When I first went in the rooms I listened to horrific bottoms. I thought, gee mine needs some work. I need to punch it up a little, it's pretty boring!!!
Theirs the sick mind in action.........wow.
If I don't drink today, follow a few simple rules - reach out to other alcoholics here and elsewhere - there's a pretty good chance I have accepted, today, the things I cannot change.
I am real alcoholic.......