We just came back from visiting canada 3 weeks ago, it was just my son and I and we actually couldn't wait to go back here. He has friends here, he absolutely loves his school and I have some real solid friends here too. Canada as well, of course.
Where I am going with this is that, I feel more comfortable continuing here than going back. I know if I actually put in the work, I can totally support myself and my son, comfortably.
I just feel numb and lazy and it's very hard for me to admit that. Almost like it's so much easier to live like this than anything else.
I think what I meant about alone is alone in the sense that I don't know how to put my plan into action.