Thank you Ann for your support. It's hard for me to understand how these men continue to survive. I've prepared for the worst for a long time now. I too have given my son to God. Visually I wrapped him in a fluffy white blanket and handed him over in prayer. To some this may sound cookoo, but for me, this brought me immense peace. I too have been a grateful member of Alanon for many years. Through prayer, practice and personal relationships, I have found some peace. But as moms, we are hard-wired to want to save our children from harm and ultimate death. The sick fear is still always deep inside me.
My life is happy and full of beautiful moments with loving family. I am able to continue to live with gratitude for what I'm blessed to have. I have done all I can and more than I should for my son and how he lives his life now is entirely up to him.
I pray that before our lives are over, we hear wonderful news about our boys.....that they are healthy and happy.
From one healing heart to another.
Be well my friend!