Well through many tears I came to my decision. In my heart I knew that I could not ignore his email. I would never forgive myself if tomorrow or next week or next month, I got word that he had died and that I had not told him I loved him, prayed for him and thought of him everyday. So I did just that. Three short sentences. This may open up a flood gate of request for help which I will deal with. I realize that his email was written out of desperation and was, in some way, an attempt to manipulate me. I'm strong now and will not fall for that. He heard me say "I love you" and that is all that matters to me.