atalose: Yes - this exactly! I worked with my al-anon sponsor today and got back in with my old therapist. I can't believe it myself...certainly not the woman I was even a few years ago. But only a little distance gives you the clarity to see how crazy it all really was. I got used to the chaos and feeling as though I was the one at fault for everything.
It is amazing how sick we can be and we don't even know it. All I can do is keep working towards sanity, one step at at time.
HB