Hey guys. Feeling pretty damn low today. I messed up. I had family come into town that we very rarely see and ended up drinking. It was nobody's fault but my own, and I'm so angry at myself. Waking up today, feeling crap, disappointed, sluggish and ill. I know this doesn't change my efforts for the past month, in fact if you'd have said that I would only drink once in a month a while back I'd have taken that, but I'm so disappointed in myself for not showing resolve, for being complacent, and ultimately for taking that first beer.
I'm not letting this be the end of my efforts. I'm stepping it up again, putting all the systems in place that have seen me through the past month, and making sure that I don't balls things up again. I feel embarrassed typing all this out after all the strength and help I've taken from here in the past month. Things need to change in my head and in my heart to stop this from happening again.