Welcome back Tear, As you know most of us know how you feel ! When my Mom health started failing , instead of being their & helping my Dad . I too tried to drink the pain away , until she passed . That Beast Lied to me , I will never - Forgive it for what it did to me & my family .
I've heard many say - Wish I had found SR sooner , but I'm here now
You can do this , get your tools shinned up - Get to Work