I often refer to myself as a "chronic relapse person" and I know I need to get rid of that negative thought I do see it as I am still trying. I have been to this one detox around 7 times and it seemed there were atleast a few frequent flyers everytime. A wonderful clinician would always say she was always happy to see us again not because we used again but because we were still alive and at least doing something about it. I don't share with my family how many times I have relapsed nor do I ever give the amount of time I have sober at that point I feel that people who don't deal with addiction see it as a failure but this is a crazy disease we have I may not have been sober yesterday but I'm going to do what I can to stay sober right now at this moment. Keep on working it I believe you can do this