I think many of us have experienced the very same setbacks at some point, I have myself and after almost 1 year of sobrietry I foolishly drank thinking in some stupid way I can control it, fast forward almost one full year and I'm going to try again starting today, I am fully aware of going cold turkey as I've done it before so I'm trying to taper off if necessary with the goal of sobrietry completely within a few days of gradual decrease of intake.