It is hard to quit. I told myself every day that I wouldn't drink that day, and did anyway. I did a couple of things when I quit after a relapse following 10.5 months of sobriety. No matter how painful it was, I did not drink. So I avoided people, places and things that were triggers. I made plans on what I would do in certain situations where I'd drink or buy alcohol. Grocery store? Bring my mother with me. Or an understanding friend when I went shopping. I also started reading and posting on SR a lot. I started going to AA meetings again and got phone numbers of supportive women and used those numbers. Calling or texting someone to say "I need help, I'm having thoughts of drinking" became far less embarrassing the more I did it.
Some of those suggestions may work for you. Hang in there