Day 50 feels ok. A battle has been won but the war feels far from over. Purposely bought my wife some wine and flowers at the grocery store. I think it was to prove I can. There is probably an underlying av cause.
Anyways still smoke free
We went to meet the teacher for kindergarten. So excited for school (sorry angd1968).
Feeling strong but untrustworthy because the thoughts of a full blown relapse are there. I have had thoughts of pre planning also. I have let them come and go. Just trying to stay vigilant and redirect my thoughts of drinking.
Have a nice day/night!!