Hi MindRacer. I don't pray, but I'm sending positive thoughts your way. I understand exactly how you feel. But when I doubt my ability to get sober, I turn my thoughts to this truth: many people here were once in the same place, and they managed to achieve long term sobriety. If they did it, I know I can do it, and I'm sure you can as well.
You should join us the August Class of 2015. The thread is here in the "Newcomers" section