Basically and honestly, I myself did not even know how bad he was until we "separated." Not even close. Yes, he shows up, he basically acts as if this is not a big deal. Why? Perhaps messing with me mentally, just like he used to. Trying to suck me back in. Perhaps he really is just tripping, living in some kind of reality of his. Perhaps he is really bipolar as rumor has it.
Unfortunately, I could not file for divorce as fast as I wanted to, mainly because of money issues, and I do want to prepare for the possibility of a contested divorce, because "no fault" in this case? Or parties being able to agree on everything? So I am just buying time while saving. Smiling and waving.