Crois thank you so very much for opening up your heart like that . I could feel between the lines how much you loved him & he you .
Drinking can be so cruel. I actually can't believe how similar you and I are , it's incredible .
I've never divulged this to anyone before , but I had an affair with the love of my life whilst I was still married. Mark and I were together for the kids basically. We fell out of love many years before.
I had known him for many years . He wanted to marry me and I wanted to be with him . We Connected so well and I loved him deeply.
It was too complicated & the kids were still young . I needed to put more energy into them.
He told me he would always wait for me , but of course that's just not being realistic.
I was devastated when he met someone else , but he had given me many opportunities to change my mind.
He moved on , I stayed in a loveless marriage , started drinking & I still think of him .
I think of what a huge mistake I made and how different my life would be.
We also saw each other at a funeral of a mutual friend .
The look between us was still there & all those feelings came rushing back.
There was never any real closure , we never had an argument , but it was just unfinished. He is a beautiful person.
Still with the same girl and has Two young children now.
Life .... Sigh
I hope no one thinks bad of me as that was a very long time ago.
I've ALWAYS felt I made the wrong choice.
Thanks for sharing Crois
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