I don’t want to be with him. How to I get rid of the guilt?
There is no one other than yourself that will keep you with him. You've got to want to get out bad enough. Seems as if it's gotten there. He's sober and nice. Drunk and nasty. A vicious circle that will continue unless he gets help and he needs to do that on his own. You can't do anything about it.
It's such a shame we feel such guilt and pity for them when they're sober and hate their guts when they're drunk. You have no reason,
none-at-all, to feel guilty. You don't force the booze down his throat and make him drink. You didn't steal the car, nor did you get him locked up. He did all that himself.
Ever see Pet Detective with Jim Carrey??? How he talks out of his butt...everytime I see that I laugh because I think most alcohlics talk the same way.
Please look up alanon meetings in your area. I'm sure there are plenty. If not in Pasadena, check out Arnold, Severn, Severna Park and Glen Burnie.
Blessings