Getright, I'm so sorry you're in pain. Of course you're treatable. Please stay with us and keep posting. We all understand & we're here to listen.
I drank 30 yrs. & now have over 7 sober. I had two dui's and my life was a wreck, so I know how you feel. I put it all back together by giving up the idea that I could ever touch the stuff. There's no such thing as one or two drinks for us. Every time we allow ourselves to believe that fantasy, we're heading to danger. Never give up on the idea of having a better life - we know you can do it.