Thanks again everyone. Wow, what a day, but I'm still sober! Hoping by Tuesday the worse of the withdrawals will be over. I have been drinking water from the spring and I'm all ready on an all organic, plant based diet- heck, I don't even use shampoo with chemicals or cleaning products that are toxic, yet I am an alcoholic and smoker? Talk about shame. If you guys knew what I did for a living you'd scratch your head and wonder wth I'm thinking...that's the insanity of addiction though, isn't it? My BP is good, shakes are faint, probably only scoring a 3, which is good. Much better than I thought it would be. Vomiting and dizzy. Very lethargic but that seems normal? On an up note, I have binge watched netflix, played with my ferrets and messaged people on fb that I have been pushing away since my hubby died. Was I honest about what was going on? Ahhhh no, but it's a start. Reaching out to you guys is easier right now. Thank you all so much for being here.