I think it is time to put yourself back in the center of your life.
Focus on what you need, who you are, how you feel.
You get to be what you want and need to be for yourself whether or not there is a man in your life.
Get your own center, plant your feet firmly where you need to be, and just enjoy this great guy, take it as it comes. You are future tripping big time, and right now there is caring and healing to be done in this relationship as it exists at this moment.
ShootingStar1