Thanks for your response. My father is an alcoholic and I hate watching myself follow in his footsteps. He has been in AA - going for years to my knowledge. But he is not sober. Now he just hides it better. I guess I see him failing and I fear I will do the same. I know I need to make changes in my life. I need to be able to take care of a toddler and an infant and make a good life for my children.