Originally Posted by
blueberry2015 
Well done, that was a test for you and you overcome it, keep reminding yourself how well you did if you ever feel the urge to drink in the future, remind yourself of that night. Its great to feel in control of our addiction, ive had a similar experience recently myself. Just out of interest what did you say when you were offered a drink?
Thanks Blueberry,
I just wrote a long reply, but my PC crashed! Grrr!
I simply said "no thanks, I've really, really gone off alcohol. I don't enjoy it anymore". Simple as that. I meant it, too.
I'm not arrogant enough to assume I will always feel like this. I know my feelings will change.
However, last night I felt strong enough to go, so I did. If I hadn't have done, I would have stayed at home.
If I had stayed in last night, for me PERSONALLY, that would have been counter-productive. I would have resented my sobriety for holding me back. Also heightened my social isolation and anxiety and made me feel like I actually CAN'T socialise sober. I now know I CAN.
I am gong to draw on this in my darkest moments to help me through. Also going to draw on the ludicrous sight and sound of drunken people making fools of themselves.
I'm not saying "that's it, I'm fixed [smug grin]". I'm saying I had a good night without drink. I'm not going to feel bad for doing well even if it is only day 3.
I have relapsed countless times, but I FEEL mentally very, very different thus time. It's all I'm saying.
Addiction is very personal and I absolutely appreciate that.