Kim, I made some "healthy" brownies the day, and they are oh so good! Google "Black Bean Avocado Brownies", seriously! Don't let the title fool you, they are decadent and sweet, and chocolaty, yum.
And yes, I remember being so down on myself from relapses, but I never associated it with the AV. It's a sly and cunning creature of our minds that's for sure. The fact that you recognize it makes you stronger then It. You've got this Kim, keep it up!