Trying not too. Self harm thoughts are there instead tho I wont lie. The hatred I feel towards myself its MY fault if I hadnt put myself in that situation in the first place ffs. To be honest I am LUCKY that its didnt turn out to be a lot worse which it could of done. I just want to chalk it up to a lesson learnt and forget about. I give thanks everyday that in fact I was looked after in my stupid stupid drunken state and got home safe. Why wont people listen to me??? I dont want to take this any further. It is stressing me the hell out.