Need a lil support
Past has been dragged up this morning whereby I feel that utter shame and regret and remorse. I cant go into to much detail as police are involved. But I put myself in a vulnerable situation. ME. No one else. I do not wish to press charges. It wasnt me that reported it my husband did. Anyways its all been dragged up again ive been crying, I feel so ashamed of myself. The need to press the **** it button is strong....I drank to forget. The need for self harm is there, husband has had to stop me from hurting myself. I feel utter crap. I just want it all to go away. I dont wanna be dealing with this... I said I wanted to drop it ffs. Police are concerned about a small amount of time where I have a black out... I remember 90% of what happened but 10% I dont.... that is angering me. That I cant accurately say i said this, agreed to that because. I DONT KNOW. 3 weeks sober... I dont need this today.