Sorry you decided to take that first drink yesterday, BoozeFree.
Remember these forums are here 24/7--when that craving hits, try to push the pause button long enough to come and ask for help first. Build up that accountability to yourself and to others. We're here for you.
Don't beat yourself up anymore about the previous relapse or this one. What's done is done and living in your regrets won't make today any better. Keep working on that plan--you have a desire to stop drinking, that's a good start. You can get this. Heck, if I can stop drinking, anyone can.
You're in my thoughts and prayers today, BoozeFree...