You sound strong. I am very glad you and your children made it through that. You are smart to keep pictures and texts to remind yourself. I know with myself I tend to only focus on the positive and I have a nack for forgetting all of the abuse and all of the things that have occurred. I think it is part of my survival skills. In my head I know how wrong and abusive my husband is, but I cannot seem to come to terms with it. I am glad you have come to terms and are safe. The police told me to contact them every time my husband attempted to contact me after the order of protection. They wanted to write up each and every time so that he would be charged for each time. I didn't do what I should have, and I regret that. I hope you have a strong support system and I hope you will stay strong in your convictions. I hope and pray you and your children never have to be near that monster again.