I'd love to go 6 weeks back change my life get back on track
I had such peace serenity it defined the love I had in me
For just one slip I've screwed it all I thought that I would have a ball
That's so not true I its just a farce a total pain right in my arse
Why did I cave why did I fall I thought ok I've got it all
Don't be fooled just be astute don't head into disrepute
I'm going to lose, my girls again this loving caring mother hen
Why do I fail why do I fall I'm the Mum who wants it all
I want my family loving me but sadly so it's not to be
It my own doing I sabotage hiding behind my camouflage
I have no one else to blame my poor excuses are all lame
I'm the only one who can fix me oh please oh please just let it be .
I'll say just one more drink ok now let me think 'oh god' no way
This happened just 2 years ago what the hell no no no
There is no coming back from this no happy after total bliss
It's depression sadness anxiety all of that which looms in me .