Thanks for the responses. I'm not sure how this works so if nobody responds I'll assume this message got lost in the thread. I almost couldn't find the thread again when I logged back on. . It's hard to think positively when after 18 months working the program I had nobody in my life. I have a good job and I'm in the gym almost daily and things aren't so bad from the outside, but I never experienced the fellowshipping I've heard about. I did a lot of work on my 4th step on addressing resentments, but right now my biggest resentment is towards the AAers in my community. I guess I can't expect them to come out of the woodwork to bring me out of my isolation, but I share about it at every meeting and admit that I'm afraid to be more outgoing. I thought someone might take me under their wing Bc I've heard of that happening a lot. No such luck. But the resentment is on me and I want to drop it.