Maybe consider the spiritual angle? Are you now willing to go to any lengths to get sober? Nobody needs to have trouble with the spiritual principles of the program, but there are plenty who plan on it...
"When the unclean spirit goes out of a man, it passes through water-less places seeking rest, and not finding any, it says, ‘I will return to my house from which I came.’ And when it comes, it finds it swept and put in order. “Then it goes and takes along seven other spirits more evil than itself, and they go in and live there; and the last state of that man becomes worse than the first.” Luke 11:24-26
When I first stumbled upon this I thought: THIS IS WHY RELAPSE SUCKS SO BAD!! Not only does the drinking get worse, but now people KNOW there is a solution. One thing's for certain: AA will ruin your drinking! Might be time to try THE program rather than YOUR program... ?