My son's death last year sent me spiraling out of control. Up to that point, I thought I had things tightly wrapped and under control. I was a high class, chardonnay drinker after all (eye roll) .
In retrospect, I was NOT in control. I had developed alcoholic behaviors, like having small bottles by me at ALL time. I was nipping sometimes on my way home. I had anxiety and morning bowel issues so bad in the morning, I needed a xanax to calm things down so I can go to work. In fact, I was gobbling xanax to keep the withdrawals at bay. Then when my son died, I was spiraling into drinking earlier and earlier in the day. I had to stop the crazy train, so I went into detox. Almost 9 months sober later, it was the best decision I ever made.