Hi JaCee,
Welcome to SR! Your story is almost identical to mine in every respect. I joined AA last November then joined SR shortly after. I had the same type drinking "thoughts" and "behaviors" as you. I didn't hit a low bottom, have physical dependence or withdrawal symptoms. But I did have the crazy thoughts and behaviors that a "normal" drinker does not have. I feel so blessed that I was able, like you, to recognize a problem was leading me to full blown , low bottom alcoholism and I needed to stop ! I know it was just a matter of time before I spiraled out of control. Stick with it, sobriety is a beautiful gift and every day gets better. It takes work and effort but its worth it . SR has been so helpful to me in reading everyone's experiences. Welcome !