I think the depression part is fine - as in its treated well and its manageable at the moment.
I think what I meant is that I don't think this is due to some untreated depression or anxiety. As in there is no need to go to see a doctor etc, its just a realisation. And a bit of a sad one at that too!
Maybe also its just the next stages on..........who know's?
As in when we give up drinking we have to be strong about wanting it for us and for the type of person it will make us.
In other words 'it is all about me'.
I suppose its just one of the first times that I have had to think about what type of a friend I am now I don't drink.
Or perhaps another way to explain it is that for the last 3 and a bit years it has been how I see myself without alcohol.
But recently, it has been how others see me without alcohol.
I'm 100% sure friends prefer the lack of drama etc.
However, I feel I have lost a bit of the fun in me too.