Originally Posted by
chloebaby 
I would feel better if I could at least talk to them daily but I won't be able to do that.
That would only be temporary feeling better. Do you want to only temporary feel better or make this something that will last the rest of your life?
I hope for the rest of your life. That will require you focusing on you and fixing you. Best done with no outside interference.
Ya have to make sacrifices.
Get some courage to face the fears and do the right thing in spite of fear.