Sorry UP, I see what you mean now! Things will change at some point, I hope sooner rather than later for you.
Obo, I'm not sure what to say, other than stay sober! The situation doesn't have to get any worse, this could be the point at which it starts to improve again. You'll be back on track soon if you get a few sober days behind you. Don't forget how far you've come, that sobriety run is still there.
