Don't know what to do!
Ok I went on another binge last week and lost my new job. My bf said that was it get help or thats it. I went to detox and they set up for me to go into a rehab. It's a 90 day rehab and I have heard very bad bad things about the way they treat their patients. The other rehabs are a month wait. My thing is my bf and bff are really pushing me to go there. I have finally found someone to actually go to aa meetings with but because of all the lies and times before I said I would go to meeting and never actually went but bought beer they now are rightfully very skeptical. I know if I don't go im gonna disappoint them if I don't go for a long while until I prove im serious this time. I hurt way too many people and don't want to do it anymore. 90 days at a place that might break me im scared of. They don't understand because they know people who have family that suceeded there. I am just not sure what to do. I am so confused.