Thanks guys. I will not drink. Its hard to cope and when I couldn't cope before I'd drink. My AV wants me to give in but fact is the issue will still be here tomorrow and it won't undo what happened to my sister. Thank God a family friend went to check on her. Found her not breathing on the floor. The guy held her down and shot her with heroin. After CPR and rape kit she is in hospital. When she came to she said it was her husbands brother. Her husband is also in hospital having a hand amputated from diabetes. You can imagine how upset he is. Ty guys and I will be staying close to y'all today.