I feel your misery. My bf and I had a date night last night. Our 3 month old was at Gramma and Grampa's for the night. I ruined our date night by getting drunk and trying to break up with my bf at the end of night. Telling him I regretted ever being with him, saying horrible things. I know this came from a place of pent up anger as we have been not getting along for several weeks/months. We recently bought a house that needs work, and he has two other children, one with special needs. Our lives are not easy.
He was crying this morning. I feel terrible. Of course I love him and want to work things out but I was very cold and cruel to him in my drunken state. I hate alcohol, and I hate being an 😔alcoholic.