When drinking.... I drank and drank and drank til I passed out. I found myself drinking more and more and more til I reached a point of being completed wasted and pass out. I had the blackouts, the remorce the regret. I came to a stage where I was downing it like water and where I couldnt get enough... begging my husband for more drink even tho I was already wasted. That sounds like an alcoholic to me. I need to keep focused on my sobriety. My drinking scared me, sometimes at the time of the month Id never know how alcohol would affect me... like a flick of a switch I could be a happy drunk to almost psycohotic where by I scared my mum and my husband they both had said I was unrecognisable I have been abusive verbally and also physically. This is why I need to stay sober.