I'm scared that I'm condemning myself to a life without choice, escape or vice and that I'll be bored and resentful.
I was scared of that too - I think everyone is. I saw sobriety as an ending - but it turned out just the opposite.
I have never been happier than I am now - I have more fun and do more things than I ever did as a drinker. I don't hate myself, and I am surrounded by friends and people who love me.
Life is good
I know it's a leap of faith but that voice in your head is a lair - it wants you to stay as you are, chained and unhappy.
Happiness won't happen overnight - but it will happen
I hope you'll give recovery a go, Lingus
Welcome to SR
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