Whiteturtle and eliasson , sending you both HUGS.
You rock for getting right back on here and posting. Man this is a fight and I'll tell you one thing for sure. I'll be on here rooting for you and I think everyone who's honest will also.
I feel like a dummy and a relief at the same time when I scrunch up and drink a few hrs away, but if I'm alive I'm cheering for us all. The amount of pressure life put on ppl is ridiculous. No wonder we all look for a "dump" button. Lol
My most miserable sober day is better than a day drinking, no matter how "calm" I feel. It's so fake. AV is the devils tool, or darkness or whatever ppl may believe.