Eliasson -- post in here once a minute if you have to. That's what this thread is for. Eat something. Drink something (non-alcoholic, of course.) Go for a walk. Take a shower. Take a bath. Wash the dog. Clean out the garage. Go to an AA or other recovery meeting. Call someone. Sit on your hands. Just don't take that first drink. It gets easier, I promise, but you have to find ways to get through that early awful stage. Your addiction wants you to take that drink. It doesn't care about what that drink and the many more that will follow are doing to your body, mind, life, and the life of those around you. Don't feed it.