I hope you are still going strong, CP! I am new here too, I go to AA meetings and have 90 days of sobriety today. I don't have any children, but I know that must be hard. I hope you have a connection to a Higher Power that you can lean on. If I didn't have mine, I know I wouldn't be sober, and I try to strengthen my connection everyday. Not always that great at it, but I am striving to do my best. Glad you are here.