Thanks, please excuse the few typos in first post, still trying to get used to a screen keyboard on a tablet.
The AV still pops in once in a while, but I am done drinking. I was a good excuse maker to justify my drinking-wife nagged too much or was the drama queen over a minor problem, too much work stress, needed to drink to overcome shyness, blah, blah, blah; all lies from my AV to poison myself.
Maybe the AV tries to kill the rational part of the brain so it can live in self-indulgent pleasure without dealing with the consequences?
Read a post a while ago that said something like "I have yet to find a problem that alcohol can't make worse." That is very true.